In general, last week I felt very unproductive, and I felt like I dropped the ball on most of things I wanted to accomplish. There is a general feeling of laziness, which I keep saying (after reading Tao Te Ching), “I am in the Tao. I am doing not-doing”. There are times when that feels really real, and everything happens through me (not forced), but there are other times, where I feel like I am just lazy. Albeit, I do feel motivated today to pick up where I left off, so that is always a sign that things are happening, and that even phases of laziness change. On the positive side, I am loving my home. I re-arranged some things and finally feel like we have the furniture set up correct. It’s been 4mo, and we finally nailed it.
- WEEKENDS: Weekends are still difficult for me to gather and input data into My Daily Chart.
- SLEEP: I still think I am getting less sleep than I normally would need. I am taking Melatonin to fall asleep most nights.
- SUPPLEMENTS: I slacked a bit this past week, but am hoping to up it this week.
- TEMPERATURE: I lost my thermometer and am kind of okay with that.
- HYDRATION: So here is where I am really proud. Because I was having a difficult time keeping track, I started drinking out of my favorite mason jar. I put a clear piece of tape over the jar and I mark with a permanent marker the amount of times I drink the full glass. I typically pour 10-12oz. This has worked really well for me. Also, I am getting in the habit of drinking my 8-12oz right when I wake up, so I feel less inclined to continue to track that.
- DREAMING: I’d still like to start tracking my dreams as well.
- SOCIAL: This week I have been feeling less social. Particularly, I was out of contact with my family and inlaws, when I knew I should have been calling them. I also slacked on my email. One thing I did not really realize is that my two best friends are out of town, and my third bestie and neighbor is also out of town. Socially, my go-to’s are gone, and I have a hard time staying in touch with people when the structure and systems change.
- BODY IMAGE: I still feel like my butt is turning into a “mom’s butt”. I am kicking back into gear with butt and ab exercises, and I am going to track that. I wonder how much I will need to increase my cardio? I also purchased a gym membership, which I will enact sometime in the next few weeks (but am in no rush).
- SKIN: My skin was overall pretty great this week. I have some shoulder bumps, but not anything noticeable.
- HEALTH: I felt groggy in the mornings, no matter how much sleep I got. I did Netti Pot this morning and yesterday morning on the tale of a “party weekend”, so I felt really good about doing that. I think it has helped.
- DISPOSITION: Adding this category this week. I would say I felt restless and unmotivated at the same time. There is a general feeling that I am waiting for something to happen, or that I am being lazy.
- HOUSE: Last week things started to lose their domestic charm. This week, I feel great. I re-arranged the furniture and the place feels like HOME. I am also going through a desire for minimalism, but we’ll see how that goes. Overall, I am loving my place. My husband and I also went to Home Depot and picked up some things. I am in the process of building a modern gazeebo in my back patio. Really excited about that.
- CAR: Like last week, nothing has happened. Except, I received a parking ticket and now there is a sign on my car that it is the property of LA because I have yet to register it in Cali. Urgh.
- MORE ON THE TAO: I am still toying with “doing not-doing”, but it is challenging. And I feel hopeful (i.e. I am desiring), that I feel more motivated.
- OTHER: Still watching My So Called Life and loving it. I am out of insecurity and more into a bit of guilt and “hard on myself” tactics. I am craving isolation. It is hard to do that in a marriage and when living with someone. It is so internal.
- PERSONAL: Maybe I will write about people in code, so I can increase the honesty in all of my texts and experiences.
- PRODUCTIVITY: Also adding this category, mainly because it has been central to my experience this past week. In many ways, I have been highly productive. I bought URL’s, re-arranged my house, hung shelves, started my gazeebo, built a website, went to the flea market, had quality time with friends, organized a dinner party… but still, because I had this month planned on doing more PhMe research and I set the standard for myself that I am a great friend, I feel guilty that I have not dedicated time to those projects/relationships. I’d like to reserve my Sundays to call friends and am putting it on my calendar to do so for this coming week.
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