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From the site, Creative Numerology, I calculated my destiny number, an 8.

It’s long!  I stuck through that which I did not think spoke to me and bolded that which I think was spot on or spoke to me.  Mostly, I think it is pretty accurate.

Numerology 8

…the life-long path of EMPOWERMENT

“Things do not happen.
Things are made to happen”
John F. Kennedy

The 8 destiny means that you will spend this lifetime learning to empower yourself by overcoming the judgments which stand between you and your strong ambitions.  You will constantly be expanding your belief in yourself.  You will learn that others can only dominate you if you allow them to, and that all circumstances can be positively changed by taking the necessary action to change them.

You will want to appear fearless.  In your effort to do so, however, you may deny that your fear exists, even when it is obvious.  As time passes and experience is gained, a certain fearlessness does, indeed, develop as you learn to be authoritative instead of dominating.  Because being liked is important to you, you will also learn that the only thing you are meant to dominate is your own time and space.  And, yet, there will be times when you feel that the whole world is, or could be, your dominion.

Eventually you will realize that fear is a natural emotion; the effect of something which requires caution on your part.  It is impossible to dispense with fear completely.  This would deprive you of the very information you need in order to keep yourself safe.  Instead of denying fear, or constantly dwelling in it, you will learn to welcome fear as the radar device it is supposed to be.  You will learn not to be afraid to be afraid. Matters of the heart, however, may take fear, or denial of fear, to different and more difficult levels.   8s can spend an entire lifetime afraid of being hurt by the thing they desire most of all – love.   You see, it is your fear of emotional pain which makes you so extremely sensitive and vulnerable inwardly, no matter how you exude confidence and nonchalance outwardly.

Your childhood environment may have had some oppressive elements such as financial or intellectual poverty.  Perhaps your parents or other adult figures could not appreciate your enormous potential for success when your interests did not fit in with their expectations for you or with the reality of the world as it was then.  There was either a strong emphasis on “making something of yourself”, or it was assumed that you would amount to nothing. Your determination to be “somebody” and your dread of being “nobody”, is actually a gift from life which now propels you to seek your own route to success.

At some point, you will decide that your “background” is not going to stand in your way any longer.  8 children often experience problems with matters of entitlement.  You are entitled to this; you are not entitled to that. Sometimes your very title – your name – is a problem in itself.  Childhood memories are very vivid to an 8 and they motivate all of your accomplishments and goals of today.  And because you want to get it “right”, you probably lean toward conservative methods and beliefs.

Be careful not to misinterpret the meaning of the word conservative.  You are a very conservative person.  That is, you are reserved, dignified, economical, gracious, efficient, and well-mannered, though you may not always have been this way.  You know that your behavior and presentation has a direct bearing on the way you are received and perceived by others.  Certain behaviors either get you what you want, or they deprive you of what you want.  You know how to behave. You know where your loyalties lie.  And you know how to be discreet.

And what a diverse collection of friends, associates, and acquaintances you have amassed.  You could not possibly adapt to all of them.   Therefore, you must present yourself in a way that not only offends no one, but also draws the admiration of all concerned because your personality appears so steady and reliable.  People know who you are and what you represent. They respect and enjoy your presence.  And you do have a strong and seductive presence.  The 8 charm and charisma is another of life’s very special gifts to you.

8 is the energy of personal satisfaction.  This is what you have come to Earth to discover.  It is a feeling so wonderful, so pleasant, so impelling, that it is a pity that many 8s never allow themselves to look beyond statistical, material, and financial satisfaction, and reach for the true power that inner gratification brings.  It is not a matter of forcing yourself to be “content” with mediocrity and, thus, pretending you are satisfied with your life. Rather, it is a matter of going out into the world and manifesting what you truly desire on a material level, remembering that desire is another word for love.  And, until you are comfortable with the fact that your very purpose for being here is to learn about, and master, life’s material aspects, material satisfaction may forever elude you.  You do desire abundance.  You want to make a lot of money.

You are ambitious, efficient, and energetic.  You are also an excellent organizer, administrator, persuader, and manager, provided it is you who calls the shots.  You are acutely aware of how others fit in with your own goals and ambitions. You have an impressive ability to take control and direct.  You want the freedom and the status that comes with money, and it is unfair to deny yourself these natural 8 desires.  It is also unfair to deny yourself the education – the learning process – which will enable you to fulfill these needs.  An understanding here helps dispense with the guilt and/or anger which has followed you through from childhood.

Does this mean that money is power?  On the surface, of course money brings power to those who have it, provided that they control the money instead of the money controlling them.  Money alone is not the answer.  It is your ability to manifest what you desire and need, with or without money, that is the true measure of your personal power.  Sometimes there is no amount of money on the face of this Earth that can give you what you desire or need, particularly as you want love more than anything else.  Money is a tool, however, and it is important that you learn how it works: to accumulate it; “play” with it; and use it to get what you want, without allowing guilt to tell you that your focus on money, status, and power is wrong.

You must learn to take only what you want from life; only what you desire.  8s who hoard and take everything they can get their hands on, regardless of whether they actually desire these things, are operating in 8s negative frenzy of greed.  This can bring no satisfaction whatsoever, even though they will deny they are unsatisfied.   They will also deny that they feel guilt about their obsession with materiality.  When guilt is denied, there is a danger that bullying and manipulation will take the place of the loving satisfaction that the positive 8 energy is all about.

You only have to look back to the 1980s; a time when the entire world was under the influence of the 8 energy, to see how misunderstood 8 was, and how negatively and often evilly it was used.  The abuse of money, status, and power during the 1980s has caused much of today’s chaos on Earth.  An 8 individual can be just as destructive if he or she misunderstands the higher purpose of 8s ability to manifest – to produce – to create.  Negative 8s develop a dangerous obsession with money and power.  They reach their goals, but derive no satisfaction or love from their accomplishments.  The fact that these people are despised by others simply adds fuel to their belief that ruthlessness is what it takes to be successful.

In another negative extreme, there are those 8s who desire achievement and money but are too afraid to take the necessary risks which they believe asserting themselves would require.  These people feel dissatisfied and limited but may deny these feelings completely This can change when they realize that there is nothing wrong with wanting something better from life and that the risks they were so afraid of are actually the echoes of their childhood which tell them they do not have what it takes to succeed.

The word “power” can overexcite or repulse an 8.  Too much emphasis on money can lead to limited thinking, stifled creativity, and missed opportunities. Driving yourself and others too hard, or trying to go it alone without learning the art of delegation are destructive elements of the 8 energy.  You, dear 8, are one of the “magicians” of the material world.  You can make things happen just by focusing on the desired result and doing what must be done to attain it.  Your power to manifest is an instinctive talent – the Midas touch – your own material magnetism which attracts material, financial, or emotional reward to you.

Although 8 is the most material energy there is, it reaches its true potential when its spiritual and emotional aspects are recognized and accepted.  8 is pure power, when it is combined with love.  The point is, 8, you are here to discover personal satisfaction, which can never be attained without loving intent.   It is through the power of intent that you are able to manifest anything at all.   Intent is desire – desire is love.  And, so, what is it that you desire?  What is it that you love?  What brings a smile to your lips and a glow to your face?  You must always be aware of what you are trying to manifest, and of how you are weaving your magic.  You will get what you ask for.

You cannot control or manipulate the 8 energy in order to make it work for you.  Rather, 8 is an energy that works through you by your acceptance of it. When this is understood, miracles begin to happen.  You may think it is you who networks, organizes, convinces, connects, and ideates – but it is the 8 energy which brings you to the right place at the right time, introduces you to the right people, and sets you up in the right circumstances.  Once you realize this, you will be able to live and succeed by intuition – your emotional awareness – the way you feel about things.  Remember that balance is one of the key ingredients of all magic.  The other is presence.  This means being there; being focused.

Whatever the circumstances of your childhood, they must be accepted as the very factors that started you off on this journey to satisfaction.  Life is not a series of punishments, but a network of consequences.  You are allowed to make mistakes, and you learn very quickly from those mistakes you actually admit to.  You are instinctively aware of the laws of cause and effect.  You learn that if you do something this way, this is the result.  If you do something that way, that will result.   And results are what you constantly seek along the 8 destiny path.  The down-to-Earth way in which you interpret your experiences teaches you a lot about human nature, and how to get the results you want.

Playing it safe is the logical step to take in most circumstances, but issues will also arise which require leaps of faith into the darkness of uncertainty. You must learn to visualize the end result first.  Then determine the steps you will need to take in order to reach your goal.  You must treat each step as a goal in itself.  You may require the cooperation of others to take care of the smaller details, so that you can focus on the big picture.  The resentment or jealousy of others may be felt, but can also be avoided.  You must delegate with authority and fairness.   You must treat others with respect and compassion.  Their input is important.  So are their feelings.

You are a natural boss and organizer with an extraordinary ability to utilize and incorporate the talents of others and manifest something much greater than you or they could ever achieve alone.  The end result is something which bears the trade mark of your creative genius even though others did contribute to it.  You must learn to give credit where it is due.

You want the best of everything and, when it comes to displaying your talent, you know that you must give only the very best that you are capable of.   The deep pride that comes with the 8 destiny can become a positive force which prevents you from rushing headlong into situations you are not ready for, or from assuming that you are more talented than you actually are.  Your desire for status and social acceptance provides a tremendous dignity in you which, in turn, becomes part of the magnetism that makes you so attractive and intriguing.  There may be aspects of your personality that are wild, footloose, and fancy free, but your sense of appropriateness will always bring you back to a more conservative approach.

You need to be in an environment in which contact with already wealthy and powerful people is possible.  These are the people who can help open many doors of opportunity for you.  The chances are, life will provide opportunities for you to meet and interact with such people.  You have so much to learn from them, and they from you.  You are also likely to have your share of friends whose focus is on purely artistic or humanitarian pursuits.  It is you who can open the doors of success for them.  While many 8s travel this path only taking its rewards, others master this path by taking its rewards and sharing them with those who wish to improve life for themselves or others. Because you love success, you can be as excited about someone else’s success as you are about your own.  Well, almost.

By the way, did you know that you sometimes talk in tangents?  Did you know that once you get going verbally, there is little that can stop you expressing everything that is in your head at the time?  There is just so much going on in that dynamic mind of yours that one sentence is often interrupted by a completely unrelated thought, shifting your conversation from one topic to another without even a pause to catch your breath.  At some point, you will ask yourself – “What was I talking about?” and, then, with tremendous grace, find a common link which will bring the conversation back to its original focus.  This is a talent which comes with confidence.

Your early years may have been plagued with dissatisfaction because you knew you could do better.  Dislike for yourself and your circumstances had to be experienced in order to learn that the highest essence of the 8 energy is satisfaction with oneself, which is contentment.

This may be a difficult lesson indeed because you always want more; you always want to do better; and you always want a return on your time and investment. Or, you may subconsciously deny that you are dissatisfied with your life because you are afraid of having to feel the guilt which wanting more often invokes.  Or, you may simply be too proud to admit your dissatisfaction to others or even to yourself.  Eventually, your need to propel yourself forward and upward will force you to face your own reality and you will know that self-denial is not an option for you.

Of course, satisfaction is never a permanent state of being.  Rather, it is an ongoing and random series of stops in your journey in which to experience a sensational feeling of appreciation.  This is a feeling of deep recognition and thankfulness for who you are, the way your life is taking shape, and for everything and everyone who has contributed to it.  These are times in which you have no choice but to stop what you are doing, realize how far you have travelled, how much love you give and receive, and feel the astonishment and joy of genuine satisfaction.  It is an exciting rush of  warm emotion which saturates your mind and body.  This is love of life, dear 8, and you will not want these intensely personal episodes to be intruded upon by minor details such as your business agenda.  This feeling is the reason – the main reward – for everything else you do.

You can make an excellent entrepreneur, but you are likely to be comfortable in a more stable environment in which to manifest your magic.  Once such a base is established, you will not want to take chances or make too many changes.  You like to stick to what you know; what has always worked well for you, what is tried, true, and tested.  But how cleverly you disguise your traditional approach by adding unique personal touches which add just enough pizzazz to keep everything looking fresh and original.  This is part of your “magic”.   Your dignified and attentive personality creates the magnetism which keeps others enthusiastically coming back to something which, for you, has become routine.  Your own particular “Midas” touch is derived from your being able to take the ordinary and develop it into the extraordinary; to take what you already have and build upon it.

There is nothing ordinary about the 8 ego, however.  It pendulates from one extreme to the other; from massive over-inflation to the depths of self-sabotage.  Either way, these extremes occur when you forget that you are walking a path on which that thing called guilt frequently jumps out and attacks you.  But, because guilt disguises itself in so many different forms, it can catch you off-guard and leave you either insecure and overly humble, or insecure and overly arrogant.  These feelings pass relatively quickly because your sense of dignity eventually provides the balance your ego needs.

Your sense of dignity is likely to get you out of many a dire strait in this life time.  But it also has its negative side which produces feelings of superiority, a loathing for the ordinary, a disgust for what you consider to be “bad taste”, a fear of scandal or exposure, and a terror of displaying emotional “weakness”.  When 8s finally admit to these fears and realize that their expectations for themselves are often too high for any human being to achieve, a certain calmness takes over as they discover their true strength – the power – to feel.   Whenever you express the emotions which have built up inside you, a deep feeling of self-satisfaction is experienced, followed by new and higher goals.

You do not want to be told what to do.  You admit to your mistakes readily provided it is you who discovered the mistake.  Others can become irritated when you ignore their well-intended advice only to, somehow, figure out the very same advice all by yourself at a later time.  Sometimes you can ignore other people’s ideas too, only to “incorporate” them into something for which you are given the credit.  I am not suggesting that you deliberately steal other people’s ideas.  But you do hate to see a good idea go to waste.  And besides, you are probably paying these people to come up with ideas in the first place.  You simply do what 8s do.  You incorporate.  But it is when you incorporate love into your magic melting pot that you are able to manifest something which, in turn, is loved by others.  This is 8s key to success. Giving people what they love.

Love itself is often a difficult issue for you to deal with, however. You may believe you are the most sweet and loving person in the world, but not everyone can relate to your businesslike manner.  You want the best of everything, including intimate relationships.  But your dissatisfactions here can prove painful for you, and for those who cannot meet your high expectations of what the perfect relationship should be.  Others can feel hurt when business, image, reputation, or money come between you.  Your dignity can be severely damaged if a friend or family member oversteps your clearly defined social “mark” and does something to embarrass you.  You may have already distanced yourself from those family and friends who do not fit in with your image.  This is normal 8 behavior, until such a high level of self-confidence is reached that you are able to accept the reality of your background without the fear that you will be judged for it.

Love is so important to you.  And so is your reputation.  Any form of rejection can leave you devastated.  If you feel slighted or shunned, you can go to extraordinary lengths to prove just how lovable and desirable you are. This behavior, too, is very normal for an 8.  It is an indication that you are uncertain of your higher purpose in life.  Only you can determine what your higher purpose is through the way you feel.  And it is only on the 8 path of manifestation, money, power, status, materiality, and self-satisfaction that you will ever discover what it is.  It is only on the 8 path that you will feel what needs to be felt in order to know just how much you have to offer the world.  You will know when you are doing what your Will is driving you to do when your activities create passion, love, and enthusiasm in you.  And, still, the only way you will be able to fulfill your higher purpose is from a position of POWER.

Elizabeth Taylor’s destiny number is 8.   In a 1996 interview with CNN’s Larry King, she talked about her passionate efforts  for AIDS research.  She said: “What good is all this fame and power if I cannot use it to help other people?”  Perhaps she found her higher purpose in her powerful lifetime. Yours is entirely your own business – your own passion – your own calling. One thing is certain though:  You have the power.

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